Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Dear Diary,

He never came yesterday. He hasn't talked to me in forever.

God's been doing awesome things at church, in my family, and at work.

And I'm under attack like crazy from the inside out, now. Being tested again. And he's not calling me back which, in itself, is a sign that something, SOMETHING, isn't right here. I don't know what, though, and I don't know what to do about it. I'm SO tired, like I can't explain, and I'm hurting really badly emotionally.

I want to be angry, but I can't be. I'm just kinda numb. And confused. And really I just want to give up.